Welcome friend! Everyone is unsaved until they have proven to God Almighty they are worthy of Him taking a fleeting moment in His busy schedule to notice their existence.
Tell me, what have you done for God and not what you expect God to do for you, there is no need to be selfish. Have you given most of your income to Him to prove you are willing to suffer as He did on the Cross so long ago? Do you help your Pastor out by painting his house, washing his car, tending to his young sons?
Give until you bleed from your ankles and wrists as Jesus did on the cross and pray that God cares.
Isaiah 45:7 I form the light, and create darkness: I make peace, and create evil: I the LORD do all these things.
Amos 3:6 Shall a trumpet be blown in the city, and the people not be afraid? shall there be evil in a city, and the LORD hath not done it?
Numbers 21:6 And the LORD sent fiery serpents among the people, and they bit the people; and much people of Israel died.
Matthew 10:34 Think not that I am come to send peace on earth: I came not to send peace, but a sword.
Matthew 10:35 For I am come to set a man at variance against his father, and the daughter against her mother, and the daughter in law against her mother in law.
Matthew 10:36 And a man's foes shall be they of his own household.