Another email from a wretched gay trying to escape the hopelessness and misery of homosexuality, praise Jesus Christ!
Warning: Graphic. I only post to deter and save heathens that would choose to be a queer and suffer similar humiliation as a consequence.
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Dear Harold Porter,
Recovering at home from rectal surgery, I am beginning your 12–Step program the hospital chaplain recommended. As you are an ex-homosexual, I ask for your thoughts and prayers as I attempt to leave the emotional, spiritual and physical train wreck of being a gay man behind me.
I don’t know just when I made the choice to be gay, but it was early in life and all I have ever known; the overwhelming and constant lust for other men. I cannot fathom the number of partners I’ve had as a gay (consenting or otherwise) and am not proud of what I have become. I guess we are just like alcoholics in that we need to hit rock bottom before we can change and I finally landed in the gutter last week.
As an ex-gay, I’m sure you understand the many daily rectal cravings that occupy our consciousness. Everything else must be postponed until we have been satisfied, however temporary. Alone at home in the evening, and with none of my hundreds of partners available for a date I was becoming desperate. Smoking the homosexual drug marijuana only fueled my lust for sodomy.
When the base of the Mrs. Buttersworth syrup bottle disappeared inside me, I knew I had gone too far this time, pleasure or no pleasure. Panic set in when I realized I could not dislodge. I somehow got some sleep thinking I could expel in the morning with a bowel movement, but to no avail.
In tears of shame and unable to drive due to the discomfort, I called a taxi to get to the hospital, thinking what I could possibly say to the doctor as I lay prone in the backseat. No chance I could lie and say that I slipped in the shower this time. It was time to tell the truth for once in my life.
When they wheeled me into the ER and the physician asked me why I was there I simply said, “I am a very sick gay man. Please help me?” I recall nothing after that as they prepared me for surgery and extracted what I had defiled myself with.
I WANT to change and am reading my bible as I go through your wise steps. Please pray for my success. Should I fail at this critical point in my life, I will be left with no choice but surgical closure of my anus and a lifetime with a colostomy bag.
Graciously,
Marvin
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