Matthew 5:48 Be ye therefore perfect, even as your Father which is in heaven is perfect.
II Thessalonians 3:4 And we have confidence in the Lord touching you, that ye both do and will do the things which we command you.
Satan is very active in these last days. He invented sociology to further his aims of which an important aspect is remembering what occurred in the past. [class struggles] [strip farming] [the yeomen caste] [merchants & guilds] [corn-chandlers] [weavers, spinners & dyers] [the lifestyle options of courtesans] An obviously false science but nevertheless one that insinuates itself and its Marxist sensibilities into everything.
Could your odd tension be the memory of past imperfections? Before understanding about Jesus what came from my sewing machine was very C-minus in the ..well more of a Z really ..what I'm saying is I can remember the fabric well enough but thinking about the actual garments produced is not something I bother to recall.
Jeremiah 18:4 And the vessel that he made of clay was marred in the hand of the potter: so he made it again another vessel, as seemed good to the potter to make it.
a potter's wheel