[Helpme]

Im sorry if this post isnt in the right place or whatever, im new to this site.
I'll start with an introduction.

Im Dan and im 19.
Ive been skiing and playing soccer all my life, and i had a girlfriend for 2 years. We never had any premarital sexual contact.

She wanted to have sex and was pressuring me so i dumped her. When we broke up i was very distraught.

When my friends found out they tried everything to comfort me, especially a boy named charles. I dont know why but ever since, i cant get charles out of my mind. I think i have feelings for a boy.

Im a Homo. I hate myself and I've been asking Jesus to help me every night.

Has Jesus given up on me?
What do i do to get these faggot thoughts out of my head?