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Originally Posted by Lycia The Repentant
I pray every day that my h*men will be re-made, and I check to see if it's grown back regularly (once in the morning, once in the evening and sometimes once or twice throughout the day), so I just don't see that the problem is. Could I be phrasing my prayers wrong? Maybe an hour of prayer a day isn't enough? Maybe God's trying to tell me He wants me to consider the surgical option?
Please help me figure this out, friends! I want to be a woman who can one day proudly say "I have a blood-stained cloth on file in Landover's archives!".
Wishing to be bathed more in the blood of Christ so I can bleed for Him,
Lycia
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I know some "reborn" Christian virgin women who "pretend" they're "innocent Christian virgins" on their wedding nights.
The guys of course have a hard time keeping a straight face, knowing all the sexual these these good Christian girls did with them, but still go along, as such a scenario can be highly erotic for a godly Christian couple.
In their sexual acts, they would sometimes role play. She liked to wear white panties and undergarments, symbolic of her Christian purity, which she would give him repeatedly as they made love.
It was a big turn-on to him, to be able to have sex with his "virginal" Christian girlfriend in that way with her pretend "innocence." They had enjoyed so much sex in their dating, he knew her vagina very well and knew what turned her on and her sexual preferences.
On their wedding night, as they prepared to give themselves to each other, holding, kissing and sexually caressing each other, she asked him if they could "pretend" she was an innocent virgin Christian woman.
With her commitment to Christ and commitment to purity and remaining chaste, which she was mostly able to do during their engagement, she considered herself, in her mind, a "reborn virgin" or a "spiritual" virgin.
She understood, of course, that she wasn't
physically an "innocent Christian virgin" anymore. They're lovemaking and all the mutual oral they had engaged in took away her Christian innocence.
However, he was her first.
She couldn't "go back" in time and become a physical virgin. That shipped sailed a long time ago when she gave herself to him.
However, she truly wanted to present herself to him as an innocent virgin Christian woman, ready to give herself to her husband.
"I'm a born again Christian now. I regret breaking God's laws and having sex before marriage, and tried my best to not have sex with you until we married. But I don't regret you....," she told him. "After all, you were my first."
They did "slip" many times during their engagement, even as she tried to keep her promise to God to be chaste... They first began having sex about 3 months into their relationship, and would go to church on Sundays after awakening in each other's arms after the highly-sexual Saturday evenings they spent together.
During their wedding night, they "re-enacted" their first time, when sex was new to her. She submitted totally to him and acted as if she had never had sex before.
She laid-back and let him, now her husband, be the aggressor and show her the things a woman needed to know and do to please her husband. That included her acting nervous and a little scared as he made his first entrance into her and "pretending" to break her holy hymen.