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Originally posted in Quarantine
My name is Unrepentant Tool. You’ve known me over the years as TrueChristian16, Brother Samuel, Andrew Barrick, Brother Thomas, Run2Him, and many others, the most known of which is Dr. Otto Bond Sr. Using the “Otto account”, I spread dangerous, blasphemous, and downright false rumors in an attempt to hurt the very man that was trying to help me: The Godly Senior Pastor Ezekiel. He almost lost his house, his estate, his fiancée, and his career. Looking back, I couldn’t be more ashamed. How can a person be so lost, and so blinded by the devil that they would backstab the person who was trying to save them from an eternity of being “back stabbed” by Satan, if you know what I mean? I was a wretched, sick, disgusting creature then, capable of only sinning and hurting the people who showed me the only True Christian™ love I had ever known.
It seemed as though I could never keep an account for more than a few months at a time. I would agree with you at first, as long as the theology never got any more complex than “Jesus died for my sins” but once we started discussing the finer points of theology, such as Preservation of the Saints, Predestination, and True Christianity™ in general, I couldn’t take it. The demons still had a strong hold on me. I knew there was a God, even though I would vehemently deny it and be blasphemous toward him in every single way I could think of. As Psalm 14:1 says:
The fool hath said in his heart, There is no God. They are corrupt, they have done abominable works, there is none that doeth good.
That was me in a nutshell. Corrupt, abominable works, and doing nothing good. I sinned like you wouldn’t believe. I’m very much ashamed of myself and, unfortunately, any of you may do a search on any of the account names above and find the kinds of things I used to post here. When I look it up manually (since my current status prevents the use of the search function), I can’t believe it myself. I was an abomination in the eyes of the Lord, and probably still am. Seeing as I’m in Quarantine, Jesus and I aren’t on conversational terms. I still talk to Him, but I really can’t blame Him for not taking much of an interest in a piece of Unsaved Trash like me.
Since I’ve been here, you’ve seen my ups and downs (mostly downs). This is my lowest point yet, and thank God the Pastors and Moderators here had enough wisdom to bring me this low. It is only now that I see the horrid sin which I have been steeped in for the past several years. When I first discovered your website, I thought it was through accident. In fact, I thought I had discovered the website of Westboro Baptist Church, which had recently picketed the Sago miners’ funerals near where I live. I see now that the hand of God was working in my life even at that point. Back then, I attended a non-denominational church that was conservative on the surface, but very liberal once you got the “inside track”. They demanded that the deacons have a solid relationship with Jesus, they said that Jesus is the only way to Heaven, and they decried Barack Obama for the sinner that he is…but that was all an illusion. I got around to asking the Head Pastor about the Old Testament (the church is fairly small, with about 150-200 members). I asked him why people aren’t stoning blasphemers and burning witches anymore, since that’s what the Bible commands. He said that although there are laws in the Old Testament about such things, we don’t have to follow them anymore because Jesus came and did away with them. I couldn’t believe what I was hearing. A Pastor saying that the Bible didn’t apply anymore. I was scared, frankly. I asked him about the verse that says that Jesus came not to destroy the law but to fulfill it. He said that I was right and because Jesus fulfilled the law, that means that it was finished. I thought about quitting church entirely. Through the mighty workings of Jesus, however, I found Landover Baptist Church the next morning at my high school. I stumbled upon the article about banned Christmas toys. At first I was concerned that Landover Baptist was too far right wing, but I got to reading the articles and realized that every word spoken on that Godly site was backed up by the Bible. I thought to myself “Finally, a church that follows the whole Bible”. I read over your website and wished I could comment on some of the things. I didn’t find the forum until some time later and began posting.
I hate to think what would have happened to me had I not found Landover Baptist Church. I thank the Godly True Christians™ here for putting up with me this long and I thank Jesus for thinking enough of me to guide me here in the first place. If it wasn’t for all of you, I’d probably be lying face down in a gutter somewhere, too drunk and stoned to move, with all kinds of diseases, and on my way to a literal, eternal Hell. Jesus saved me from that demonic non-denominational church and dropped me right in the loving arms of Landover Baptist Church, the largest gathering of worthwhile people ever to assemble. In spite of my sinful moments, I aspire to be more like you all each day. I see where sinning would have taken me, and I thank Jesus daily that I’m not there right now. It is only through the guidance of the people here that I have any possibility at all of going to Heaven. I want to thank you for giving me that opportunity. Thank you.
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