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Forgive me brothers for I have sinned! I confess I've been leading a double life!
I sit here typing this alone, tear stains still wet on my cheeks. I have finally become tired of living this lie. The Heathen_Basher you all know is a sham. In truth, I have been living in the depths of the most depraved sins for years now. I want to change, but I am weak.
Brothers, I confess to you today that I am a fan of rock and roll music!
It all started two years ago. I was going through the radio in my car while on a trip out of state to tune into some conservative talk radio, but accidentally left it on a station that plays alternative rock music. I'm ashamed to admit that Satan got the better of me. The music intrigued me, the pulsing rhythm, the intensity of the singing, the lyrics...it all made my head spin.
It didn't stop there. I started tuning my radio to the station every once in a while. First just for a few minutes, then a little longer until it was all I listened to! It got to the point where that wasn't enough. I started downloading songs off the internet into my ipod so I could listen to the rock music any time I wanted.
I was so afraid of anyone finding out. I kept saying I would quit, and I got close to it, and I kept praying that God would forgive me. But again and again I would fall back into the horrible sin. I am so weak. Nobody could imagine the kind of filth this seemingly innocent church boy was listening to in his spare time. "Alexisonfire", "Pearl Jam", "Tool", "Stone Temple Pilots", "IllScarlett", "Young the Giant", "Black Keys", "Nirvana", "Metallica"...the list goes on and on.
Well today I was at home and heard an announcement for a local rock concert. I was this close to ordering tickets when I finally realized what depths I had sunk to.
I know this all may sound shocking, and I can understand if you never look at me the same way. But I need help overcoming this. Pray for me, my brothers and sisters. I am lost and so alone.
Brothers, I confess to you today that I am a fan of rock and roll music!
It all started two years ago. I was going through the radio in my car while on a trip out of state to tune into some conservative talk radio, but accidentally left it on a station that plays alternative rock music. I'm ashamed to admit that Satan got the better of me. The music intrigued me, the pulsing rhythm, the intensity of the singing, the lyrics...it all made my head spin.
It didn't stop there. I started tuning my radio to the station every once in a while. First just for a few minutes, then a little longer until it was all I listened to! It got to the point where that wasn't enough. I started downloading songs off the internet into my ipod so I could listen to the rock music any time I wanted.
I was so afraid of anyone finding out. I kept saying I would quit, and I got close to it, and I kept praying that God would forgive me. But again and again I would fall back into the horrible sin. I am so weak. Nobody could imagine the kind of filth this seemingly innocent church boy was listening to in his spare time. "Alexisonfire", "Pearl Jam", "Tool", "Stone Temple Pilots", "IllScarlett", "Young the Giant", "Black Keys", "Nirvana", "Metallica"...the list goes on and on.
Well today I was at home and heard an announcement for a local rock concert. I was this close to ordering tickets when I finally realized what depths I had sunk to.
I know this all may sound shocking, and I can understand if you never look at me the same way. But I need help overcoming this. Pray for me, my brothers and sisters. I am lost and so alone.
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