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I am a 96 years old spaniard who came to this holy forum with the intention of learn the ways to get closer to God and try to solve my doubts. No risks when the eternal condemnation of my soul is in the bet. I was not writing very much but I was reading with attention the contributions of the Biblical experts and they were transparent as the water of a spring. Thanks, i am wondering if you know how important you were to my sense of Christianity and Sacred.
But someday a very clever poster Biblical argued me against my teachings and an unknown abyss of doubt was opened in my feet. He was right and i was wrong but I could not imagine how i had to adapt my life to be according to the literally of the Holy KJV Bible.
The conversation was on the hatred towards the enemies. I am a selfmade man. I am behind the enemy line. I am forced to hide for venerate God in a proper way. I can not bring soldiers of Jesus to the world because in my sinner country all the women are catholic or even muslims. For God sake, i must pay a very very high amount of taxes to these socialists who make me hide my "illegal" guns, who are leaving the country in the ruin. Literally, Greece and Italy are jokes comparing with Spain. And muslim terrorism is increasing according with their agenda. This was the european barrier against the moors, shame!!!
With these personal precedents to treat differently the enemies is a very bitter pill to swallow. Then I realized that it needed to open my heart to God. I must pray free without hide myself. I lived in the hypocresy with the neighbors and i am assuming too risks visiting you because the totalitarian goverment can track my IP. I can not pray and ask for pardon if my survival is in risk and cannot be absolutely sincere because always there can have anybody looking.
I travelled to a cave in a desert. It was hard for an elder man to be an ascetic and feed grasshoppers and honey during three years. It did not have another options. But this was not the hardest part. Last month I had Revelations while it was praying. Well i can't tell this in words, it's not easy even in my native language, but i can say that i passed all the tests envoys by God. I am safe, for now. But He showed me all my lacks, sins, mistakes and offenses. Shame on me, i saw myself in the mirror of the shame. Lord gaves me his Pardon. I'm a new man and i'll go to Heaven if i die now. Being alone i am fighting against Satan in his field from my born. I am an old man, my bones are tired, my mind is now slow. I want to live, i'd love to have a son. God works in a mysterious way but rhetorically I ask you: Why Lord allows me to live? Every day I am weaker, every day the demon invents crueller temptations. Everyday the fight is harder.
Help my dear brothers, quarter to me.
Ps. As you can see my english is still bad, sorry about but it was another price to pay.
But someday a very clever poster Biblical argued me against my teachings and an unknown abyss of doubt was opened in my feet. He was right and i was wrong but I could not imagine how i had to adapt my life to be according to the literally of the Holy KJV Bible.
The conversation was on the hatred towards the enemies. I am a selfmade man. I am behind the enemy line. I am forced to hide for venerate God in a proper way. I can not bring soldiers of Jesus to the world because in my sinner country all the women are catholic or even muslims. For God sake, i must pay a very very high amount of taxes to these socialists who make me hide my "illegal" guns, who are leaving the country in the ruin. Literally, Greece and Italy are jokes comparing with Spain. And muslim terrorism is increasing according with their agenda. This was the european barrier against the moors, shame!!!
With these personal precedents to treat differently the enemies is a very bitter pill to swallow. Then I realized that it needed to open my heart to God. I must pray free without hide myself. I lived in the hypocresy with the neighbors and i am assuming too risks visiting you because the totalitarian goverment can track my IP. I can not pray and ask for pardon if my survival is in risk and cannot be absolutely sincere because always there can have anybody looking.
I travelled to a cave in a desert. It was hard for an elder man to be an ascetic and feed grasshoppers and honey during three years. It did not have another options. But this was not the hardest part. Last month I had Revelations while it was praying. Well i can't tell this in words, it's not easy even in my native language, but i can say that i passed all the tests envoys by God. I am safe, for now. But He showed me all my lacks, sins, mistakes and offenses. Shame on me, i saw myself in the mirror of the shame. Lord gaves me his Pardon. I'm a new man and i'll go to Heaven if i die now. Being alone i am fighting against Satan in his field from my born. I am an old man, my bones are tired, my mind is now slow. I want to live, i'd love to have a son. God works in a mysterious way but rhetorically I ask you: Why Lord allows me to live? Every day I am weaker, every day the demon invents crueller temptations. Everyday the fight is harder.
Help my dear brothers, quarter to me.
Ps. As you can see my english is still bad, sorry about but it was another price to pay.
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