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First of all, I was saved when I was five. I was made to pray and then I went to church every Sunday.
My parents were divorced and I was stuck in the middle of their battle of hating one another. My mother second husband sexually assaulted me at the age of 7. I was told I was damaged goods by the pastor. He called me a slut at age 7.
Most of you will say yeah she is a harlot because a seven year old couldn't get a 250 lb man off of her.
My love for god was strong even when it happened to me. Perhaps this was a sign of God's love or a sign to have me become truly devoted more than ever to his will.
Then as a teenager I realized that is not true. God had forsaken me to a pedophile who thought a child of seven was delicious to touch and have. Even more so as I got older only to see there was no love from any of those who spoke they were "True Christians."
The pastor that I had seen was later convicted for child pornography and checking if his flock still had their virginity. This was a pastor who claimed to be a man of God, who spoke the words of scripture only to masturbate to child porn and sexually abuse his flock's children.
My faith died in the teachings of Christ, for where was God when he allowed such a man to spew his scripture, to allow him to touch children in a sexual manner? He was no man, he was animal, a savage who dare to call me damage goods at the age of seven. Who dared to tell me I was a slut when he was the damaged savage that couldn't help but touch children and have his way with them.
I have lost faith in everything and now I am Atheist and for the first time in all my life I have felt nothing but joy. I have a family, a husband and a son. To those who would spout hatred for me because I am not religious but I ask you please, please write to me and try to open my mind and heart again without spewing your hatred for me and what I don't believe in.
Perhaps with a loving conversation that doesn't include: "You are going to burn in hell..." Honestly I have heard it way too many times and it just gets old. It just makes me want to mute your conversation. If you wish to open my heart and mind again you better think about what you are going to say to me. Be a witness as you would be to one who never heard the teachings of Jesus.
That is all I have to say. If this isn't much of a unsaved trash introduction then I don't know what is.
My parents were divorced and I was stuck in the middle of their battle of hating one another. My mother second husband sexually assaulted me at the age of 7. I was told I was damaged goods by the pastor. He called me a slut at age 7.
Most of you will say yeah she is a harlot because a seven year old couldn't get a 250 lb man off of her.
My love for god was strong even when it happened to me. Perhaps this was a sign of God's love or a sign to have me become truly devoted more than ever to his will.
Then as a teenager I realized that is not true. God had forsaken me to a pedophile who thought a child of seven was delicious to touch and have. Even more so as I got older only to see there was no love from any of those who spoke they were "True Christians."
The pastor that I had seen was later convicted for child pornography and checking if his flock still had their virginity. This was a pastor who claimed to be a man of God, who spoke the words of scripture only to masturbate to child porn and sexually abuse his flock's children.
My faith died in the teachings of Christ, for where was God when he allowed such a man to spew his scripture, to allow him to touch children in a sexual manner? He was no man, he was animal, a savage who dare to call me damage goods at the age of seven. Who dared to tell me I was a slut when he was the damaged savage that couldn't help but touch children and have his way with them.
I have lost faith in everything and now I am Atheist and for the first time in all my life I have felt nothing but joy. I have a family, a husband and a son. To those who would spout hatred for me because I am not religious but I ask you please, please write to me and try to open my mind and heart again without spewing your hatred for me and what I don't believe in.
Perhaps with a loving conversation that doesn't include: "You are going to burn in hell..." Honestly I have heard it way too many times and it just gets old. It just makes me want to mute your conversation. If you wish to open my heart and mind again you better think about what you are going to say to me. Be a witness as you would be to one who never heard the teachings of Jesus.
That is all I have to say. If this isn't much of a unsaved trash introduction then I don't know what is.
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