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Greetings Lady and Sir of this Godly forum.
I came here seeking help and advise for a difficult, maybe hopless attempt of salvation.
If there's a place (although virtual) in the earth in wich I could seek it, I feel is this one.
My Journey for salvation begun, well, last week. I was idly wandering trough the net, in pursuit of ungodly fun, untill I stumbled (at the moment I tought by chance) on one of Mrs Withford video on youtube. At the moment, I'm ashamed to admit it, I watched the video moved by the desire of laughing at another "religious freak", but the words started tu struck some chord deep inside me. I begun to feel shaken, at first by doubt, then, by certainity. It took just some obvious but clever question, some inspired quoting from His Book to begin to understand that all I belived untill that very moment (all that I was made belive, to be more precise) was a lie. A teeible, cruel, unforgiving lie. At the same time I felt the hunger to know more, and I felt horror for the life I passed till now.
Being in tialian (thus, living just in the mouth of the Whore of Vabilon) I was raised catholic, idolizing "saints", popes, and the incubator of the Lord rather than Himself, and litsening to their twisted "interpretetion" of His Word, (Word that they didn't allow us to read directly), and to theire made up "dogmas".
But day after day, I begun to doupt of them. Something inside Myself begun to be disgusted of the people kneeling and kissing statues, of the lustfull looks that the oppulently and girly dressed priest gave at the young altar boy, at the incoerence that they were bubling from the altars.
Maybe it was a chance given to me to find the Grace, but I was fooled by the devil. Instead of rejecting the false idols, I rejected the God they pretended to rappresent. At school, the evolution theory gave me easy answer (looking back I wonder how could I be so fool to belive such absurdity) whit wich I thought I can get rid of religious Belief.
And thus, withoud guide, I sunk deeper and deepr in the worst of sin and depravation:
I embraced not just evolution, but liberal view, enviromentalism, defense of "gay right" ,the right of mooNslim to build temple in Europe, Dungeons ad Dragons, races equalitarism, Jhos whedon Pro-gay pro-occult pro-liberal tv show, tantra, shatsu, keynesian economy theory, drugs abuse, femminism, and I tremble just saying it, yes, even communism.
I let the devil get inside me in so many ways that I can't find the strenght to belive I can be realy forgiven for all the horror I commited, and I fear I gave him to many power to twist my mind with doubt and temptation to be really able to be saved, to find the perfect faith that will lead me to Grace and salvation.
I begun to search a King James 1611 Bible (but in Italy, it's really a quest. Surely the unholy church of rome does not encourage his diffusion, and that God Mocking cult is so powerfull downthere...). A further difficult for me (as you may have guessed by the poor grammar and spelling of this post) is my less than scarce knowledge of english.
In fact, the Catlycks have extensive power over the school in italy (vrtually all private school are on their controll, and in every pubblic school they have their professo of religion, choosed by the bishop and charged to indoctrinate the young mind) and they made all the effort possible to descourage the study of english (prefering to teach the effeminate language of the liberal frog-eater french). I never realised the true motivation that lie behind that absurd choise, untill I Knew that God leave his true, unalterate word in english. (And now understand too that it's not by chance that english become the more known language of the world. It's just a Sign of his power, and a sign for all who have understanding for where to look for for the truth). Just recently, when english is become so important for buisness, they allowed the study of english at school (after all they worship mommon, and they wont they follower to get enough rich to pay rich tribute for paying theire fancy gay clothes, ring, pagan statues and roipnol for the altar boy's communion wine), but it was quite late for me. So, my road to salvation is made harder by my ignorance of God's favurite lanugage, and I have to annoy this goly forum with my awfull attempt at english.
Anyway, I put hope in you, expecially in the enlightment and competence of Pastor Billy Reuben.
And, must of all, thank Mrs Withford for giving me a chance to know His Word.
I came here seeking help and advise for a difficult, maybe hopless attempt of salvation.
If there's a place (although virtual) in the earth in wich I could seek it, I feel is this one.
My Journey for salvation begun, well, last week. I was idly wandering trough the net, in pursuit of ungodly fun, untill I stumbled (at the moment I tought by chance) on one of Mrs Withford video on youtube. At the moment, I'm ashamed to admit it, I watched the video moved by the desire of laughing at another "religious freak", but the words started tu struck some chord deep inside me. I begun to feel shaken, at first by doubt, then, by certainity. It took just some obvious but clever question, some inspired quoting from His Book to begin to understand that all I belived untill that very moment (all that I was made belive, to be more precise) was a lie. A teeible, cruel, unforgiving lie. At the same time I felt the hunger to know more, and I felt horror for the life I passed till now.
Being in tialian (thus, living just in the mouth of the Whore of Vabilon) I was raised catholic, idolizing "saints", popes, and the incubator of the Lord rather than Himself, and litsening to their twisted "interpretetion" of His Word, (Word that they didn't allow us to read directly), and to theire made up "dogmas".
But day after day, I begun to doupt of them. Something inside Myself begun to be disgusted of the people kneeling and kissing statues, of the lustfull looks that the oppulently and girly dressed priest gave at the young altar boy, at the incoerence that they were bubling from the altars.
Maybe it was a chance given to me to find the Grace, but I was fooled by the devil. Instead of rejecting the false idols, I rejected the God they pretended to rappresent. At school, the evolution theory gave me easy answer (looking back I wonder how could I be so fool to belive such absurdity) whit wich I thought I can get rid of religious Belief.
And thus, withoud guide, I sunk deeper and deepr in the worst of sin and depravation:
I embraced not just evolution, but liberal view, enviromentalism, defense of "gay right" ,the right of mooNslim to build temple in Europe, Dungeons ad Dragons, races equalitarism, Jhos whedon Pro-gay pro-occult pro-liberal tv show, tantra, shatsu, keynesian economy theory, drugs abuse, femminism, and I tremble just saying it, yes, even communism.
I let the devil get inside me in so many ways that I can't find the strenght to belive I can be realy forgiven for all the horror I commited, and I fear I gave him to many power to twist my mind with doubt and temptation to be really able to be saved, to find the perfect faith that will lead me to Grace and salvation.
I begun to search a King James 1611 Bible (but in Italy, it's really a quest. Surely the unholy church of rome does not encourage his diffusion, and that God Mocking cult is so powerfull downthere...). A further difficult for me (as you may have guessed by the poor grammar and spelling of this post) is my less than scarce knowledge of english.
In fact, the Catlycks have extensive power over the school in italy (vrtually all private school are on their controll, and in every pubblic school they have their professo of religion, choosed by the bishop and charged to indoctrinate the young mind) and they made all the effort possible to descourage the study of english (prefering to teach the effeminate language of the liberal frog-eater french). I never realised the true motivation that lie behind that absurd choise, untill I Knew that God leave his true, unalterate word in english. (And now understand too that it's not by chance that english become the more known language of the world. It's just a Sign of his power, and a sign for all who have understanding for where to look for for the truth). Just recently, when english is become so important for buisness, they allowed the study of english at school (after all they worship mommon, and they wont they follower to get enough rich to pay rich tribute for paying theire fancy gay clothes, ring, pagan statues and roipnol for the altar boy's communion wine), but it was quite late for me. So, my road to salvation is made harder by my ignorance of God's favurite lanugage, and I have to annoy this goly forum with my awfull attempt at english.
Anyway, I put hope in you, expecially in the enlightment and competence of Pastor Billy Reuben.
And, must of all, thank Mrs Withford for giving me a chance to know His Word.
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