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I am a little over 30. I know I am a bit young, but I had a very sinful childhood up until I was around 23, & I hope I either can glean something from you all or help others. Right off the bat; I was not raised by my parents, like at all, & I was taught in the public school system. I was a drunkard, gay, tobacco addict, (both cigarettes & chew) & of course careless. On top of all that, I thought everyone but my few friends were horse shit & that everyone, even religious people deserved to die. I was in numerous drunk car crashes, too many fights to remember, & even got two cancers; lung & skin. The first cancer I got was a skin cancer, one that is caused by to much sun light. Actinic Keratosis is its name. So, I was basically allergic to the sun, even though I was not outside much. Then when I got this, I could not be in the sun much at all. That did not stop stupid & stubborn me. I did not really care about my state & often questioned the purpose & reason of life, & if the pleasure was worth the suffering that comes with pleasure. But then on top of that & also got lung cancer. Even that did not make me change my ways. After questioning life over & over, I tried to commit suicide by jumping out a 5th story window. I had broken legs, arms, ribs, & a cracked skull. But, I did not die. During the tortuous recovery, I tried again, still in the hospital, by using a needle to cut my wrist, the correct way (long ways NOT sideways). But, I still survived. Recognizing that I had survived over 10 car crashes, 2 suicide attempts, 2 cancers that were still trying to hand me over to death, but I was still recovering, I decided something was not letting me go. So, I recovered, got out of the hospital & decided to find out what was torturing me by not killing me. The Jews religion did not strike the nerve & neither did any of the others even some of the Christian ways did not really. But, the one thing I noticed, was that in every religion, something was similar to another, almost linking each other together. So, I decided, well; how about I read the bibles for each religion. So, I started with the most common: The Holy Bible. Well, It was definitely different from most Christian's beliefs even though they supposedly go by IT. So for the past 7ish years, I have worked off my debt & read the Bible front to back about 13 times now. I have read a few different translations a little bit, but found that the King James version seemed to be the most accurate. Since I began to read the bible, I have overcome my addictions to the point I am still chewing tobacco, but can stop chewing whenever I want for as long as I want. I stopped chewing tobacco for over 4 years & realized It was God & the state of my head that overcame my addictions. So my addictions are now at my command & both cancers are completely gone. I have not had an accident in a while, (Yes I do have accidents, but NO WHERE near what I used to have). I just discovered this site, & thought: "Wow these people are up front, straight forward, & different" After investigating this site a little, I decided to join & see how things go. I do not go to any church, I feel like I have been told to just stay at home & read the Bible. I am no longer gay, but I am not married either. I acknowledge the place of man over women, & that everything is not happy go lucky as people will burn forever in hell & we will be persecuted. I am a self employed drywall installer, & doing okay now in financial terms. However I find myself almost crying for Jesus to return as the ignorance of the people around is just down right frustrating. I try to tell people about God, & either they are so fixed on their own religion (evolution mainly) or they don't even care. I have come to the belief that God knew what I would become & thought it worth my shitty life.
So thats the overall of my story, & I love constructive criticism. I love debates because if the other person (AND YOURSELF) are open to receive truth, then you can grow from each other. I do not like pompous formalities, just straight up talking as if we were face-to-face & as if we were old friends.
With all that out of the way, I will go back to exploring this forum.
I am a little over 30. I know I am a bit young, but I had a very sinful childhood up until I was around 23, & I hope I either can glean something from you all or help others. Right off the bat; I was not raised by my parents, like at all, & I was taught in the public school system. I was a drunkard, gay, tobacco addict, (both cigarettes & chew) & of course careless. On top of all that, I thought everyone but my few friends were horse shit & that everyone, even religious people deserved to die. I was in numerous drunk car crashes, too many fights to remember, & even got two cancers; lung & skin. The first cancer I got was a skin cancer, one that is caused by to much sun light. Actinic Keratosis is its name. So, I was basically allergic to the sun, even though I was not outside much. Then when I got this, I could not be in the sun much at all. That did not stop stupid & stubborn me. I did not really care about my state & often questioned the purpose & reason of life, & if the pleasure was worth the suffering that comes with pleasure. But then on top of that & also got lung cancer. Even that did not make me change my ways. After questioning life over & over, I tried to commit suicide by jumping out a 5th story window. I had broken legs, arms, ribs, & a cracked skull. But, I did not die. During the tortuous recovery, I tried again, still in the hospital, by using a needle to cut my wrist, the correct way (long ways NOT sideways). But, I still survived. Recognizing that I had survived over 10 car crashes, 2 suicide attempts, 2 cancers that were still trying to hand me over to death, but I was still recovering, I decided something was not letting me go. So, I recovered, got out of the hospital & decided to find out what was torturing me by not killing me. The Jews religion did not strike the nerve & neither did any of the others even some of the Christian ways did not really. But, the one thing I noticed, was that in every religion, something was similar to another, almost linking each other together. So, I decided, well; how about I read the bibles for each religion. So, I started with the most common: The Holy Bible. Well, It was definitely different from most Christian's beliefs even though they supposedly go by IT. So for the past 7ish years, I have worked off my debt & read the Bible front to back about 13 times now. I have read a few different translations a little bit, but found that the King James version seemed to be the most accurate. Since I began to read the bible, I have overcome my addictions to the point I am still chewing tobacco, but can stop chewing whenever I want for as long as I want. I stopped chewing tobacco for over 4 years & realized It was God & the state of my head that overcame my addictions. So my addictions are now at my command & both cancers are completely gone. I have not had an accident in a while, (Yes I do have accidents, but NO WHERE near what I used to have). I just discovered this site, & thought: "Wow these people are up front, straight forward, & different" After investigating this site a little, I decided to join & see how things go. I do not go to any church, I feel like I have been told to just stay at home & read the Bible. I am no longer gay, but I am not married either. I acknowledge the place of man over women, & that everything is not happy go lucky as people will burn forever in hell & we will be persecuted. I am a self employed drywall installer, & doing okay now in financial terms. However I find myself almost crying for Jesus to return as the ignorance of the people around is just down right frustrating. I try to tell people about God, & either they are so fixed on their own religion (evolution mainly) or they don't even care. I have come to the belief that God knew what I would become & thought it worth my shitty life.
So thats the overall of my story, & I love constructive criticism. I love debates because if the other person (AND YOURSELF) are open to receive truth, then you can grow from each other. I do not like pompous formalities, just straight up talking as if we were face-to-face & as if we were old friends.
With all that out of the way, I will go back to exploring this forum.
to you and a prayer that Jesus will help you improve your grammar, spelling, and such. 
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