I am having a rough time.

[l0standc0nfused]

I used to be a person that went to church regularly. However I have recently been neglecting going to church. I am 25 years old and I am looking back on my life.

I am sure it is in the bible but I sometimes question why god would let my father abuse me sexually for so long. Is it part of gods plan? It started when I was six years old. I was 9 the first time he penetrated me, shouldn't god have protected me from this?

I'm sure god had a plan and molded me into the person I am today but I sometimes question his methods.

I don't agree with all of your beliefs. I dont think that people with down syndrome choose it.. But if its in the bible.. who can aurgue it.

My father wasn't the only one to sexually abuse me. My preacher also did, I just don't like to go to church now because he sometimes gives me the look. He stopped making me perform sexual acts on him when I turned 18. I found a new boy for his god given "Urges".

Does god use rape as punishment? Maybe I did something to anger god.

I am jsut really confused and I hope that you can help make gods message clear to me.

Thank you.

[Didymus Much]

Re: I am having a rough time.

...why god would let my father abuse me sexually for so long...
...My father wasn't the only one to sexually abuse me. My preacher also did...

Why haven't you pressed charges? The Bible says we're to obey all secular ordinances, and sexual abuse is a serious crime.

If you're no longer available, they'll find a different victim, and your silence enables that.

[l0standc0nfused]

Re: I am having a rough time.

He is a preacher. He is gods servant, I am not going to go against god and tell on god.

Anyway the preacher said I would go to hell if I did.

[Didymus Much]

Re: I am having a rough time.

He is a preacher. He is gods servant...

Would God's servant violate God's word?

...I am not going to go against god and tell on god...

You're not going against God. You're standing up for what He says in the Bible. You're going against a predator who will keep doing what he does until he's stopped.

...Anyway the preacher said I would go to hell if I did.

He's using your fear to keep you in line. How will you feel when you see evidence of him doing this to other youngsters, something that YOU could have prevented?

The shame is NOT yours. It is his.

None of your above reasoning applies to your father, either.

[l0standc0nfused]

Re: I am having a rough time.

I'm sorry but after looking at your profile you are obviously not a person of god.

You are a Hellbound Heathen, Perv, Cancer of society, God Mocker... the list goes on. Please stop trying to lead me down the wrong path. I am very vulnerable right now and I reject your satanic ways.

[Didymus Much]

Re: I am having a rough time.

I'm sorry but after looking at your profile you are obviously not a person of god.

You are a Hellbound Heathen, Perv, Cancer of society, God Mocker...

Yes, the admins have been generous in blessing me with awards.

Be that as it may, I am never allowed to post anything contrary to Scripture (if I did, it would get "disappeared" pretty quick).

As none of the moderators, Pastors, or other True Christians™ have contradicted anything I've said, don't you think that, in this case, they're agreeing with what I've told you?

[James Hutchins]

Re: I am having a rough time.

To the OP. Stop whinning, snap out of it and get right with Jesus.

[Pastor Isaac Peters]

Re: I am having a rough time.

I'm sorry but after looking at your profile you are obviously not a person of god.

You are a Hellbound Heathen, Perv, Cancer of society, God Mocker... the list goes on. Please stop trying to lead me down the wrong path. I am very vulnerable right now and I reject your satanic ways.

If you can't rebut the message, shoot the messenger. If you don't believe a fellow God-mocker such as Diddle-me-much, will you believe a True Christian™ pastor? In the unlikely event that there's even a morsel of truth to what you've said and that you're not just trolling us, that preacher is not a man of God, since the Bible clearly states that we shall know every tree by its fruit. There's also the minor matter of what you say your father did, and if it's beside the point, why did you go into so much detail? Finally, I can't help noticing that you seem unable to capitalize "God," when you have no problem capitalizing the word dearest to you, which is "I."

[l0standc0nfused]

Re: I am having a rough time.

Is seeking knowledge considered whining?

[Rev. M. Rodimer]

Re: I am having a rough time.

He is a preacher. He is gods servant, I am not going to go against god and tell on god.

Anyway the preacher said I would go to hell if I did.

The preacher lied. No servant of God would molest children in his care. That is sin; a True Christian™ cannot sin.

Telling on someone who pretends to be a servant of God is not going against God; it is showing your love of God.

I'm sorry but after looking at your profile you are obviously not a person of god.

You are a Hellbound Heathen, Perv, Cancer of society, God Mocker... the list goes on. Please stop trying to lead me down the wrong path. I am very vulnerable right now and I reject your satanic ways.

While the atheist will usually try to mislead you, just like Satan, he is correct in this case.

If you remain silent about what was done to you, then you are helping him do it to others. That makes you an accomplice to child abuse. Is that what you want? For others to go through the same thing you did?

No, I didn't think so.

And the atheist is right about another thing. It's not YOU who should be ashamed. It is him. You can stand up, say what was done to you, and set yourself free of your shame over the matter.

It'd make Jesus proud to see you telling the truth, friend.

[GodsUselessSon]

Re: I am having a rough time.

Engage in solitary prayer. The solution will show itself once you have proved to HIM that you are past the immoral doings of the "PASTOR." It was merely a ruse, and as a young child you were ignorant. THE LORD will forgive you, provided your argument is really really good.

[Zechariah Smyth]

Re: I am having a rough time.

Instead of saying things like "I am sure it is in the Bible" why don't you read it for yourself? It will do you a world of good.

Yours in Christ,

Z. Smyth

[Faith_Machine]

Re: I am having a rough time.

Does god use rape as punishment?

You're going to have to help me out here, friend, because I'm reading a whole lot of info about you getting various grown men in trouble with your sexually precocious behavior, but nowhere in there am I finding any account of you being legitimately raped.

It seems to me that you have a fornication problem and a sodomy problem. The sooner you give yourself fully to Jesus Christ, the sooner these problems will go away.

[Cranky Old Man]

Re: I am having a rough time.

I am sure it is in the bible but I sometimes question why god would let my father abuse me sexually for so long. Is it part of gods plan? It started when I was six years old. I was 9 the first time he penetrated me, shouldn't god have protected me from this?

Stop blaming others for your own mistakes! First of all, rape doesn't exist. Rape is a myth created by lesbian feminist sluts to damage innocent men. As to men having sex with you, the only one to blame here is yourself. Your slutty behavior is the cause of this, nothing else. Instead of dressing like a tramp, dress like a proper lady and the sex will instantly stop. It's that easy.

[PetitionLady]

Re: I am having a rough time.

To the OP. Stop whinning, snap out of it and get right with Jesus.

Precise and concise, wonderfully said, Brother James.

My comment to the OP would be to set aside hours a day to read the Bible.