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My name is Johnathan. I do not like to be called John as I have not yet earned the right to be called this Godly name.
I fear God. I have always striven to be a good Christian but it is only recently that I have come to see Our Lord in all of his mighty glory. To Fear God was not taught in my church, (which is Grace Baptist in Parkersburg, WV under the pastorship of William P. Oldeaker) so I am hear to better understand God's true purpose for me. I used to think it was enough to Praise Him but the punishments God has delivered unto me recently have been a message received loud and clear. I have been a weak Christian. I am repentant and fearful.
I have prayed for forgiveness and thus have been lead here. I am not exactly sure why I have been punished but I believe I have been lead here not just to grown as a Christian but for a specific purpose. While the old me would have simply prayed and been repentant for my sins, I know now I must do more. Please help me find out what that is. I have been reading this message board thoroughly after God had me stumble upon it. I was researching sinful acts of the flesh such as body piercings and tattoos when I found you. I wanted to know how other Christians are handling this plight but now I realize the fight against body-polluting, while important, was a vehicle provided my God to bring me here. I must appease my angry God. I believe the sin that I have committed that has angered him the most is that fact that I am 27 and unwed. I cannot find a wife when all of the whores are covered in piercings and tattoos. May God forgive my weakness (and their's), it is not in His name.
To make myself the center of this post would be ungodly, therefore I will let more information about me be made available organically. While I am unworthy of God, I am worthy of His word, which speaks to me the loudest is as follows: "For if we go on sinning deliberately after receiving the knowledge of the truth, there no longer remains a sacrifice for sins, but a fearful expectation of judgment, and a fury of fire that will consume the adversaries. Anyone who has set aside the law of Moses dies without mercy on the evidence of two or three witnesses. How much worse punishment, do you think, will be deserved by the one who has spurned the Son of God, and has profaned the blood of the covenant by which he was sanctified, and has outraged the Spirit of grace? For we know him who said, “Vengeance is mine; I will repay.” And again, “The Lord will judge his people.” ..." Hebrews 10:21-36
I had originally presented some of this information in a reply to another posr but realized starting a new thread would be the best way to introduce myself. I am uncomfortable talking about myself at times, so I left out "how [I] came to find Jesus," in my previous reply. I want to appear humble to those who do not know me, I believe acting this way sets a good example for a lost generation and is Godly. Anyway, I will now attempt to answer the question:
In college, I fell victim of the devil. To that point, I was a practicing Christian- one that followed the guidance of my parents and prayed at God's divine feet since I was a toddler. (My parents have since fallen away from God. I speak of this with shame and I believe it is one of the other reasons I am being punished) In my Sophomore year, I met a whore who was an agent of the devil. She was so beautiful and as other idiot heathens I equated her beauty and kindness with Godliness. We spent time witnessing praying and going to church but when our hands were idle, they became the devil's workshop. She was jealous of my relationship with God and didn't understand it, which led her to do what she did next...
Instead of giving up on her futile effort to pry me away from God and joining me in his daily praise she decided to try to get my attention with a stunt, thus pulling me away from God. I had formerly confided in her that I had recently been praying for forgiveness because I had viewed lesbian pornography online. (I can say in the eye's of God this is not something i have done since, thank Him) This gave her the idea to employ another heathen and attempt to engage me in group sex with another girl. Although to this day I believe the shame I feel when sharing details of the experience is part of my punishment but I can only do so when invited to by my Christian brothers and sisters in a private setting. I will not go further on a public post. While I did not have intercourse with them I did touch them. This is the closest I have ever been to the devil.
It was like my lifetime of praise for him was all for not. I felt extreme shame and searched high and low for new guidance. My friends had failed me, the whore failed me, my pastor failed me and worst of all I failed God. While sin is sin and never in God's plan, God gave me the strength and perseverance (and profound shame) to truly find Him. This is how I found Jesus.
I fear God. I have always striven to be a good Christian but it is only recently that I have come to see Our Lord in all of his mighty glory. To Fear God was not taught in my church, (which is Grace Baptist in Parkersburg, WV under the pastorship of William P. Oldeaker) so I am hear to better understand God's true purpose for me. I used to think it was enough to Praise Him but the punishments God has delivered unto me recently have been a message received loud and clear. I have been a weak Christian. I am repentant and fearful.
I have prayed for forgiveness and thus have been lead here. I am not exactly sure why I have been punished but I believe I have been lead here not just to grown as a Christian but for a specific purpose. While the old me would have simply prayed and been repentant for my sins, I know now I must do more. Please help me find out what that is. I have been reading this message board thoroughly after God had me stumble upon it. I was researching sinful acts of the flesh such as body piercings and tattoos when I found you. I wanted to know how other Christians are handling this plight but now I realize the fight against body-polluting, while important, was a vehicle provided my God to bring me here. I must appease my angry God. I believe the sin that I have committed that has angered him the most is that fact that I am 27 and unwed. I cannot find a wife when all of the whores are covered in piercings and tattoos. May God forgive my weakness (and their's), it is not in His name.
To make myself the center of this post would be ungodly, therefore I will let more information about me be made available organically. While I am unworthy of God, I am worthy of His word, which speaks to me the loudest is as follows: "For if we go on sinning deliberately after receiving the knowledge of the truth, there no longer remains a sacrifice for sins, but a fearful expectation of judgment, and a fury of fire that will consume the adversaries. Anyone who has set aside the law of Moses dies without mercy on the evidence of two or three witnesses. How much worse punishment, do you think, will be deserved by the one who has spurned the Son of God, and has profaned the blood of the covenant by which he was sanctified, and has outraged the Spirit of grace? For we know him who said, “Vengeance is mine; I will repay.” And again, “The Lord will judge his people.” ..." Hebrews 10:21-36
I had originally presented some of this information in a reply to another posr but realized starting a new thread would be the best way to introduce myself. I am uncomfortable talking about myself at times, so I left out "how [I] came to find Jesus," in my previous reply. I want to appear humble to those who do not know me, I believe acting this way sets a good example for a lost generation and is Godly. Anyway, I will now attempt to answer the question:
In college, I fell victim of the devil. To that point, I was a practicing Christian- one that followed the guidance of my parents and prayed at God's divine feet since I was a toddler. (My parents have since fallen away from God. I speak of this with shame and I believe it is one of the other reasons I am being punished) In my Sophomore year, I met a whore who was an agent of the devil. She was so beautiful and as other idiot heathens I equated her beauty and kindness with Godliness. We spent time witnessing praying and going to church but when our hands were idle, they became the devil's workshop. She was jealous of my relationship with God and didn't understand it, which led her to do what she did next...
Instead of giving up on her futile effort to pry me away from God and joining me in his daily praise she decided to try to get my attention with a stunt, thus pulling me away from God. I had formerly confided in her that I had recently been praying for forgiveness because I had viewed lesbian pornography online. (I can say in the eye's of God this is not something i have done since, thank Him) This gave her the idea to employ another heathen and attempt to engage me in group sex with another girl. Although to this day I believe the shame I feel when sharing details of the experience is part of my punishment but I can only do so when invited to by my Christian brothers and sisters in a private setting. I will not go further on a public post. While I did not have intercourse with them I did touch them. This is the closest I have ever been to the devil.
It was like my lifetime of praise for him was all for not. I felt extreme shame and searched high and low for new guidance. My friends had failed me, the whore failed me, my pastor failed me and worst of all I failed God. While sin is sin and never in God's plan, God gave me the strength and perseverance (and profound shame) to truly find Him. This is how I found Jesus.
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