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Hello all of you! My real name is Dawn, I am 20 years old, and within the past few years I have gradually been rebuilding my life. I think this site is a great place for me to stop on that journey, as I discover the true word of God.
Thus far my favorite passages are
I am also quite fond of Deuteronomy 22:25-29. If you have no interest in my life story, know that my desire to rebuild my life from the lonely and sinful depths it sunk are what drew me to God. The specific discussion that brought me here was Dr. Johnathan Edwards' theory that women don't have souls. Even as a woman it seems less and less like a theory and more like a fact to me.
For most of my life I have experienced a profound isolation from others, due in part to my parents decision to home-school me. This also was not helped by the internet, throughout my teenage years, utterly poisoning my mind. Most of the internet is purely the devil's work, and it takes an iron stomach and strong mind to withstand... just imagine someone growing up on that... that is me.
Even after I began socializing more, it was difficult for my mind to overcome its disease, until I took an interest in Christ... I've been feeling(and looking) a lot better ever since, although I have a ways to go still.
My mother and father are of the undecisive sort who believe in God, but do not follow any particular organized religion. They apply their OWN beliefs unto Him, and nowadays that distresses me. They identify as liberal as well as feminists and... well... as much as I love my older brother and father... I fear for my younger brother.
Of course, I doubt I would even be here if i were not a strong supporter of traditional gender roles. I still do my best to ask my father and older brother for guidance whenever I can, and I pray my younger brother learns how to be a real Man. Even before I began my journey to get in touch with God, I felt that Men were just better by nature. While I am a good student, my male friends have always been smarter than me.
I don't think it's a surprise then how I was drawn to Landover Baptist. While this website has answered many other questions for me, probably the biggest thing has been the infamous study stating that women don't have souls. When I read that study, and the discussions on this forum about the topic, my stomach filled with butterflies. I couldn't figure out my own reaction. I obsessively did more research on the subject, and became more and more entranced. I googled every possible way of saying women don't have souls. I worried that my mind was once again being poisoned by a heretical idea, but it felt... right. I liked it. I confess it gave me a strange sexual thrill, but it explained so much to me... one simple fact explained a world of things to me. Among other things it explained why we are less intelligent, less able to control our emotions(if indeed we feel real emotions compared to Men), and of course why Eve was so easily deceived. Our purpose is earthly; to provide pleasure and companionship for Men, and to facilitate reproduction. Why keep us beyond our use?
I saw some arguments that why should we follow this faith if we don't have souls? If women do not have immortal souls, then we can neither be in Heaven nor Hell. That when when women die, we cease to be, like animals. In theory that would mean it doesn't matter how we live our lives. I think there is a strong beauty to it myself! That a woman would live a Godly life, and serve her husband(or all the men in her life) dutifully, even if she knows she cannot have an afterlife.
That is the kind of woman I want to be. While the discussion said for us to consider ourselves saved until further notice, I am happy to embrace this belief. As a woman, I do not have a soul. This life is all I have, and as I rebuild myself I will fulfill my purpose in serving the Men in my life. Their souls will hopefully carry my memory with them into Heaven, while having fulfilled my purpose I will sink into the earth with all women.
It felt good to write this. I dare not tell my family or friends of this... I don't think either of my sweet brothers could handle the idea of me not having a soul. Sorry about my rambling.
Thus far my favorite passages are
Originally posted by Acts 20:35
Originally posted by 1 Peter 2:18
For most of my life I have experienced a profound isolation from others, due in part to my parents decision to home-school me. This also was not helped by the internet, throughout my teenage years, utterly poisoning my mind. Most of the internet is purely the devil's work, and it takes an iron stomach and strong mind to withstand... just imagine someone growing up on that... that is me.
Even after I began socializing more, it was difficult for my mind to overcome its disease, until I took an interest in Christ... I've been feeling(and looking) a lot better ever since, although I have a ways to go still.
My mother and father are of the undecisive sort who believe in God, but do not follow any particular organized religion. They apply their OWN beliefs unto Him, and nowadays that distresses me. They identify as liberal as well as feminists and... well... as much as I love my older brother and father... I fear for my younger brother.
Of course, I doubt I would even be here if i were not a strong supporter of traditional gender roles.
I still do my best to ask my father and older brother for guidance whenever I can, and I pray my younger brother learns how to be a real Man. Even before I began my journey to get in touch with God, I felt that Men were just better by nature. While I am a good student, my male friends have always been smarter than me.I don't think it's a surprise then how I was drawn to Landover Baptist. While this website has answered many other questions for me, probably the biggest thing has been the infamous study stating that women don't have souls. When I read that study, and the discussions on this forum about the topic, my stomach filled with butterflies. I couldn't figure out my own reaction. I obsessively did more research on the subject, and became more and more entranced. I googled every possible way of saying women don't have souls. I worried that my mind was once again being poisoned by a heretical idea, but it felt... right. I liked it. I confess it gave me a strange sexual thrill, but it explained so much to me... one simple fact explained a world of things to me. Among other things it explained why we are less intelligent, less able to control our emotions(if indeed we feel real emotions compared to Men), and of course why Eve was so easily deceived. Our purpose is earthly; to provide pleasure and companionship for Men, and to facilitate reproduction. Why keep us beyond our use?
I saw some arguments that why should we follow this faith if we don't have souls? If women do not have immortal souls, then we can neither be in Heaven nor Hell. That when when women die, we cease to be, like animals. In theory that would mean it doesn't matter how we live our lives. I think there is a strong beauty to it myself! That a woman would live a Godly life, and serve her husband(or all the men in her life) dutifully, even if she knows she cannot have an afterlife.
That is the kind of woman I want to be. While the discussion said for us to consider ourselves saved until further notice, I am happy to embrace this belief. As a woman, I do not have a soul. This life is all I have, and as I rebuild myself I will fulfill my purpose in serving the Men in my life. Their souls will hopefully carry my memory with them into Heaven, while having fulfilled my purpose I will sink into the earth with all women.
It felt good to write this. I dare not tell my family or friends of this... I don't think either of my sweet brothers could handle the idea of me not having a soul. Sorry about my rambling.
I was hoping the "if you don't care for my life story" paragraph would make up for it.
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