Hello. Though my name is Xanretsu, you may label me whatever you feel. I come before you to ask questions about your faith, your morals, and further, to question everything you believe in. Though it sounds complacent, try not to over-analyze anything I'm saying and interpret it as satanic or sacrilegious, I only mean to gain knowledge and awareness of this whole...thing. Also, I am in no way attempting to bash you, for before you were a Christian, before you were a sinner, before you were adults, before you were labelled babies and etc, you were human, you are my reflections and I must learn from each of you.
Have any of you ever questioned your faith?? Have any of you actually got down to the bare bones of it all, and asked what if? Not asking your preacher/pastor/minister, not even your parents, but your own self? Have you ever asked your own heart, your feelings on the subject of Christianity? Perhaps religion itself? Or has the fear of God crippled your critical thought processes to the point where you no longer can rely on your own self for survival? Do you still have the ability to judge life for yourself, without the crutches of your beliefs or the crutch of the "Sword?" Moreover, can you distinguish your feelings from your thoughts? Do you think what you feel in your heart is not the way it's supposed to be?
Westside Baptist Church, Pacifica, California. That is where it started for me, and that was where it ended. Born again, Bible believing baptized Christian. That was me, WAS. Unfortunately, my mind interpretted life traumatically different than everyone else I saw in church. I was born "gifted," or, like 97% of you would say, I was born a witch, or just plain old born satanic, because of my ability to see and feel things others lack. I never understood it, yet I joined the church thinking I could find answers. Twelve years later, and nothing answered, I had to let go. Instead of finding what I was seeking, I found fear, and lots of it. I feared expressing myself to my preacher or anyone for that matter, I was always the quiet watcher, subtly spectating the humans before me and passing judgements for my own self. I was curious to discuss my intuition with other's, but the fear of "God" prevented me from discussing it. According to the Bible, Jesus was the only one who was worthy of practicing such abilities, so you might be able to understand the amount of fear penetrating my body once I actually read the Bible. Confusion, disarray, incoherency, just all around stars circling my head. I wouldn't dare discuss it with my preacher, for fear of ridicule. There was a time in my life where I actually worried more about the projection of my self-image towards other humans than actually concentrating on my own personal feelings. I paid heavily for that betrayal. And I promised that I'd never stab my soul in the back again, for anyone, not even Jesus. I left the church, they won't even let me in the building because of who I am now.
Over the years after I left the church, I became more and more aware and more and more "psychic" or intuitive. I discovered things about the way this universe actually works and how you actually can know, without a doubt, what's out there. Looking back at where I came from, I always questioned the Bible, because it always contradicted itself. I do not understand how hard it is for people who are so caught up in their own faith and fear of God that they cannot see the obvious.
Example. God created Adam and Eve, yes? Yes. Did God create ANY MORE humans other than Adam and Eve? According to the Bible, He did NOT. If this is true, like I'm sure many of you believe, then the word "incest" is the first thing that comes to mind, atleast to mine. How the Bible clearly says that incest is wrong, I can't quote where exactly, but I'm sure it says incest is wrong, and yet it directly contradicts itself because if God hated incest, and Adam and Eve were the ONLY TWO HUMAN BEINGS CREATED BY GOD, then how is it possible that the human race has gotten to the point it has today, without incest? Adam and Eve had babies, and then what? God told them they couldn't mate together and populate the planet? Or is there some convenient explanation or some sort of lost scripture that we are unaware of in which it states specifically that God actually created more humans other than Adam and Eve? Are you still following me? How is it logically possible for this world to be populated without the use of incest? Are you going to say that God allowed it just that one time, and now it's a sin to do such a thing? What does that do to God's own credibility as a Creator? How can you take Him serious if he switches his own "Laws" around so many times and then contradicts himself in his own book? Can you still think critically? Or are you going to slam me for even bringing this up for debate?
The Bible, as I know it, is filled with contradictions. Just so we're on the same page, I read the KING JAMES VERSION of the Bible, the only bible, supposedly, that is backed by Jesus himself. When you think of things such as what I stated above, does the fear of God come to heart? Do you fear reckoning? If so, why? Another contradiction is God's own love, supposedly, unconditional love. How can you say you love someone, unconditionally, and then damn them to an eternity of Hell in the name of love and for the sake of that person to learn? How can you learn about God when you're burning? Another contradiction, according to the Bible, God knows all, sees all, hears all, and etc. If this is true, then is it not logical to say that God created Lucifer with the FULL INTENTION of making him the King of all Evil? If God knows all, as the "good book" certainly states he does, then did He not see Lucifer's betrayal? Direct contradiction, perhaps it was God's intention to create Satan all along to bring us closer to him. If this is true, then should we not love and appreciate Satan for even existing? Because to me, Satan is kind of like Jesus, is he not?
Jesus was a great teacher, but is satan not the greatest teacher of them all? If he teaches us to go towards the light, should we not be thankful and appreciative of his overall existence? Why must we damn him and curse his existence? If he didn't exist, would it be true that we would not even know the love of God? Contradiction. Satan is a teacher, like it or not, he is here to teach us, and if it is indeed true that he draws more towards God through his evil tactics, is it not above our thinking to question whether or not God really DID make Satan intentionally? If God DID make him intentionally, then why is it that he contradicts himself and swears that satan is the king of all evil? God created Satan, does that not make him equal to Satan? General rule of thumb here people, in order to create something, that something must first exist within you, or else you'd never know what you're creating. God did not just create Lucifer, God created the King of ALL EVIL. Does that not make them, logically, brothers so to speak?
To say that God knows all and sees all, and then to say He didn't know at the time that Lucifer would betray him, is a direct contradiction and a violation of your own beliefs, is it not? You say God knows all, and then say that he didn't know that Lucifer was going to betray him, is this not a slap in God's own face to even think such thoughts? Maybe just this one time he didn't know? Another contradiction. God works in mysterious ways? This saying brings me to my final point.
After I left the church and began searching for a new way of life, as I have stated before, I found out some things about the universe in which we dwell in. I always questioned the fact that prayers are always answered, no matter the religion or belief. Even if you're a sinner and you pray, you'll be answered. You'll typically get what you want and/or need. That always intrigued me, so I researched this "power." The conclusion I came to is this, no matter the beliefs, no matter the religion, "God" will always answer your prayer and help you in whatever it is you desire, murder, life, love, hate, men, women, whatever your heart's desire, if you want it hard enough, and you will it through your heart, you will get it. No matter your beliefs, you will get it. This holds true for 100% of humanity, it can work with prayer and without prayer. I tested it, I tried it by saying "Dear Jesus....Amen," and then I tried it without the Dear Jesus, and Amen. Both times worked. Are you too scared to attempt what I said?
Before you bash me, before you think there actually is someone up there who has your back, think carefully. Language, for example, was developed as an exterior response to human experience. Humans experience, and then judge. Language hasn't changed much over the centuries, it is just a complex combination of sounds generated through our vocal cords to express what we feel and think on the inside, also to express what we see on the outside, true? True. Every different culture and race of humans have their own form of language, yes? Yes. But we are not born knowing any of it. We are, for lack of a better explanation, born ignorant of everything they say is essential to salvation. If this is true, then does God really care who is saved and who isn't? Contradiction.
What about a human born in the forests of South America? Born to a tribe with no beliefs or nothing to do with any type of "higher power." He grows up and lives a full life and dies, not ever knowing the Lord. Am I to believe he is going to burn in hell for his own ignorance? Maybe not ignorance, because he didn't know in the first place, ignorance entitles someone to know something about something else, and ignore it anyway. So, moreover, is this human being not INNOCENT...BECAUSE he never knew? No one ever told him? And now hes damned to hell and he doesn't even know why!??! Am I to believe that our God is THAT CRUEL??
Tell me.
Have any of you ever questioned your faith?? Have any of you actually got down to the bare bones of it all, and asked what if? Not asking your preacher/pastor/minister, not even your parents, but your own self? Have you ever asked your own heart, your feelings on the subject of Christianity? Perhaps religion itself? Or has the fear of God crippled your critical thought processes to the point where you no longer can rely on your own self for survival? Do you still have the ability to judge life for yourself, without the crutches of your beliefs or the crutch of the "Sword?" Moreover, can you distinguish your feelings from your thoughts? Do you think what you feel in your heart is not the way it's supposed to be?
Westside Baptist Church, Pacifica, California. That is where it started for me, and that was where it ended. Born again, Bible believing baptized Christian. That was me, WAS. Unfortunately, my mind interpretted life traumatically different than everyone else I saw in church. I was born "gifted," or, like 97% of you would say, I was born a witch, or just plain old born satanic, because of my ability to see and feel things others lack. I never understood it, yet I joined the church thinking I could find answers. Twelve years later, and nothing answered, I had to let go. Instead of finding what I was seeking, I found fear, and lots of it. I feared expressing myself to my preacher or anyone for that matter, I was always the quiet watcher, subtly spectating the humans before me and passing judgements for my own self. I was curious to discuss my intuition with other's, but the fear of "God" prevented me from discussing it. According to the Bible, Jesus was the only one who was worthy of practicing such abilities, so you might be able to understand the amount of fear penetrating my body once I actually read the Bible. Confusion, disarray, incoherency, just all around stars circling my head. I wouldn't dare discuss it with my preacher, for fear of ridicule. There was a time in my life where I actually worried more about the projection of my self-image towards other humans than actually concentrating on my own personal feelings. I paid heavily for that betrayal. And I promised that I'd never stab my soul in the back again, for anyone, not even Jesus. I left the church, they won't even let me in the building because of who I am now.
Over the years after I left the church, I became more and more aware and more and more "psychic" or intuitive. I discovered things about the way this universe actually works and how you actually can know, without a doubt, what's out there. Looking back at where I came from, I always questioned the Bible, because it always contradicted itself. I do not understand how hard it is for people who are so caught up in their own faith and fear of God that they cannot see the obvious.
Example. God created Adam and Eve, yes? Yes. Did God create ANY MORE humans other than Adam and Eve? According to the Bible, He did NOT. If this is true, like I'm sure many of you believe, then the word "incest" is the first thing that comes to mind, atleast to mine. How the Bible clearly says that incest is wrong, I can't quote where exactly, but I'm sure it says incest is wrong, and yet it directly contradicts itself because if God hated incest, and Adam and Eve were the ONLY TWO HUMAN BEINGS CREATED BY GOD, then how is it possible that the human race has gotten to the point it has today, without incest? Adam and Eve had babies, and then what? God told them they couldn't mate together and populate the planet? Or is there some convenient explanation or some sort of lost scripture that we are unaware of in which it states specifically that God actually created more humans other than Adam and Eve? Are you still following me? How is it logically possible for this world to be populated without the use of incest? Are you going to say that God allowed it just that one time, and now it's a sin to do such a thing? What does that do to God's own credibility as a Creator? How can you take Him serious if he switches his own "Laws" around so many times and then contradicts himself in his own book? Can you still think critically? Or are you going to slam me for even bringing this up for debate?
The Bible, as I know it, is filled with contradictions. Just so we're on the same page, I read the KING JAMES VERSION of the Bible, the only bible, supposedly, that is backed by Jesus himself. When you think of things such as what I stated above, does the fear of God come to heart? Do you fear reckoning? If so, why? Another contradiction is God's own love, supposedly, unconditional love. How can you say you love someone, unconditionally, and then damn them to an eternity of Hell in the name of love and for the sake of that person to learn? How can you learn about God when you're burning? Another contradiction, according to the Bible, God knows all, sees all, hears all, and etc. If this is true, then is it not logical to say that God created Lucifer with the FULL INTENTION of making him the King of all Evil? If God knows all, as the "good book" certainly states he does, then did He not see Lucifer's betrayal? Direct contradiction, perhaps it was God's intention to create Satan all along to bring us closer to him. If this is true, then should we not love and appreciate Satan for even existing? Because to me, Satan is kind of like Jesus, is he not?
Jesus was a great teacher, but is satan not the greatest teacher of them all? If he teaches us to go towards the light, should we not be thankful and appreciative of his overall existence? Why must we damn him and curse his existence? If he didn't exist, would it be true that we would not even know the love of God? Contradiction. Satan is a teacher, like it or not, he is here to teach us, and if it is indeed true that he draws more towards God through his evil tactics, is it not above our thinking to question whether or not God really DID make Satan intentionally? If God DID make him intentionally, then why is it that he contradicts himself and swears that satan is the king of all evil? God created Satan, does that not make him equal to Satan? General rule of thumb here people, in order to create something, that something must first exist within you, or else you'd never know what you're creating. God did not just create Lucifer, God created the King of ALL EVIL. Does that not make them, logically, brothers so to speak?
To say that God knows all and sees all, and then to say He didn't know at the time that Lucifer would betray him, is a direct contradiction and a violation of your own beliefs, is it not? You say God knows all, and then say that he didn't know that Lucifer was going to betray him, is this not a slap in God's own face to even think such thoughts? Maybe just this one time he didn't know? Another contradiction. God works in mysterious ways? This saying brings me to my final point.
After I left the church and began searching for a new way of life, as I have stated before, I found out some things about the universe in which we dwell in. I always questioned the fact that prayers are always answered, no matter the religion or belief. Even if you're a sinner and you pray, you'll be answered. You'll typically get what you want and/or need. That always intrigued me, so I researched this "power." The conclusion I came to is this, no matter the beliefs, no matter the religion, "God" will always answer your prayer and help you in whatever it is you desire, murder, life, love, hate, men, women, whatever your heart's desire, if you want it hard enough, and you will it through your heart, you will get it. No matter your beliefs, you will get it. This holds true for 100% of humanity, it can work with prayer and without prayer. I tested it, I tried it by saying "Dear Jesus....Amen," and then I tried it without the Dear Jesus, and Amen. Both times worked. Are you too scared to attempt what I said?
Before you bash me, before you think there actually is someone up there who has your back, think carefully. Language, for example, was developed as an exterior response to human experience. Humans experience, and then judge. Language hasn't changed much over the centuries, it is just a complex combination of sounds generated through our vocal cords to express what we feel and think on the inside, also to express what we see on the outside, true? True. Every different culture and race of humans have their own form of language, yes? Yes. But we are not born knowing any of it. We are, for lack of a better explanation, born ignorant of everything they say is essential to salvation. If this is true, then does God really care who is saved and who isn't? Contradiction.
What about a human born in the forests of South America? Born to a tribe with no beliefs or nothing to do with any type of "higher power." He grows up and lives a full life and dies, not ever knowing the Lord. Am I to believe he is going to burn in hell for his own ignorance? Maybe not ignorance, because he didn't know in the first place, ignorance entitles someone to know something about something else, and ignore it anyway. So, moreover, is this human being not INNOCENT...BECAUSE he never knew? No one ever told him? And now hes damned to hell and he doesn't even know why!??! Am I to believe that our God is THAT CRUEL??
Tell me.
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