I feel sad, angry and betrayed. All I can do I to prey Jesus to let me understand why I'm punished with this. My third child is going to be a girl!
End of last year, I was so happy when my wife told me that she is ok with more children. Yes, I'm married with woman who is not yet True Christian. She tries to be but she still has some issues with being subservient and she used birth control without me knowing. When she confessed this and promised me that she'll make as many babies as I want, I forgave her. You can imagine how happy I was when some time ago she told me that she was going to give me a son! LORD was so happy with me that HE let my wife to get pregnant so quick.
We celebrated this well. I even canceled my missionary trip to brazil to have nice weekend in the spa with my wife. I also gave my wife lots of flowers and let her do some shopping. Then everything changed:
We had time for the ultrasound few days ago. Because I was so happy, we went to the more expensive 3D ultrasound, which gives pretty clear picture. During the ultrasound, doctor asked if we wanted to know the gender and I just told that it is a boy. Doctor said that no, it is actually a girl and then started to show us the private parts of the baby! I was speechless. My wife had deceived me. All the celebration, spa, everything was just undeserved. I was so angry that I slapped my wife in the face and walked out. I have been so angry since that I haven't been even able to talk to my wife, fearing that I would use too much force and maybe even kill the baby.
Don't get me wrong here, I have nothing against girls. I love girls as much as boys. And girls are almost as important as boys. Without women, there would not be more children and I guess that your houses would be really mess without our wives and daughters cleaning and cooking. You could even say that True Christian girl can be better than unsaved boy. The problem I have is that my wife lied. God punished us with the girl because my wife was a sinner. But girls are not something to be celebrated like boys.
I'm lost here. What should I do? All I can think is Proverbs 6:16-19 that says that God hates my wife now.
What should I do?
YiC, M
End of last year, I was so happy when my wife told me that she is ok with more children. Yes, I'm married with woman who is not yet True Christian. She tries to be but she still has some issues with being subservient and she used birth control without me knowing. When she confessed this and promised me that she'll make as many babies as I want, I forgave her. You can imagine how happy I was when some time ago she told me that she was going to give me a son! LORD was so happy with me that HE let my wife to get pregnant so quick.
We celebrated this well. I even canceled my missionary trip to brazil to have nice weekend in the spa with my wife. I also gave my wife lots of flowers and let her do some shopping. Then everything changed:
We had time for the ultrasound few days ago. Because I was so happy, we went to the more expensive 3D ultrasound, which gives pretty clear picture. During the ultrasound, doctor asked if we wanted to know the gender and I just told that it is a boy. Doctor said that no, it is actually a girl and then started to show us the private parts of the baby! I was speechless. My wife had deceived me. All the celebration, spa, everything was just undeserved. I was so angry that I slapped my wife in the face and walked out. I have been so angry since that I haven't been even able to talk to my wife, fearing that I would use too much force and maybe even kill the baby.
Don't get me wrong here, I have nothing against girls. I love girls as much as boys. And girls are almost as important as boys. Without women, there would not be more children and I guess that your houses would be really mess without our wives and daughters cleaning and cooking. You could even say that True Christian girl can be better than unsaved boy. The problem I have is that my wife lied. God punished us with the girl because my wife was a sinner. But girls are not something to be celebrated like boys.
I'm lost here. What should I do? All I can think is Proverbs 6:16-19 that says that God hates my wife now.
What should I do?
YiC, M
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