Good Day,
my name is Evelina. I am over 30 and, to my regret, single.
I have been married to an atheist but he divorced me. He did so, because I told him I could, not in good faith, raise children with him.
He found another woman. She has a child and a job. I wonder how she can be so cruel to the child.
Although I would love to have children, I will have to give up that wish. Because I will not be able to find a elegible husband. For love, I moved to a rural part of Germany, where roman catholicism prevails.
I was raised according to the beliefes of the Lutheran Church. Al least my mother did her best. My father did not care. I found Jesus when my marriage started to get difficult, and I was seeking a way to become a better wife.
I do my best to worship the Lord under this circumstances. But I have the feeling that I am failing. Since the divorce I feel the lack of guidance in my life even more. If my Ex did not give me guidance in any way, at least he gave me a womanly purpose. I just wish he would have found faith.
Maybe I should have been a better wife? Maybe this would have turned him?
Whatever. I joined this forum to find guidance. So I will not lose my way. And maybe one day, I will find the right man. And maybe, if I am not granted my own children, he will have children I can care for.
Oh yes, my favorite Bible verse: Ecclesiastes 3:17
Have a blessed sunday,
Evelina
my name is Evelina. I am over 30 and, to my regret, single.
I have been married to an atheist but he divorced me. He did so, because I told him I could, not in good faith, raise children with him.
He found another woman. She has a child and a job. I wonder how she can be so cruel to the child.
Although I would love to have children, I will have to give up that wish. Because I will not be able to find a elegible husband. For love, I moved to a rural part of Germany, where roman catholicism prevails.
I was raised according to the beliefes of the Lutheran Church. Al least my mother did her best. My father did not care. I found Jesus when my marriage started to get difficult, and I was seeking a way to become a better wife.
I do my best to worship the Lord under this circumstances. But I have the feeling that I am failing. Since the divorce I feel the lack of guidance in my life even more. If my Ex did not give me guidance in any way, at least he gave me a womanly purpose. I just wish he would have found faith.
Maybe I should have been a better wife? Maybe this would have turned him?
Whatever. I joined this forum to find guidance. So I will not lose my way. And maybe one day, I will find the right man. And maybe, if I am not granted my own children, he will have children I can care for.
Oh yes, my favorite Bible verse: Ecclesiastes 3:17
Have a blessed sunday,
Evelina
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