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Help me kill the PTSD demons before they kill ME!
Ever since returning from Iraq I have been in a state of constant fear. The slightest challenges to my power cause me to respond with irrational outbursts of anger. Everything is a threat, friends can't be trusted, neutrals like all shades of grey don't exist...I'm depressed, with no confidence in any of my abilities save violence, and even then I don't believe I'm strong enough to defend myself without fighting as dirty as possible.
In Iraq I personally witnessed [Lies deleted. He's so delirious he's confusing Al-Jezeria propaganda with his own memories - Jeb] in fact they even gave him a medal for it.
I have gained an overwelming view of life as conflict, struggle, and war. We must arm, arm, arm. We must fight in every spectrum: commerce also is a fight to the death in which we must prevail by any means. We must not become soft and weak, as only the strong and resolute will survive in this dog-eat-dog world; we have to let our citizens starve if they can’t keep up. Further, we must breed, breed, breed, - that's what I mean when I say "pro-Family" for else the Chinese, Moslems, Africans, etc will overwhelm us.
America is weak! Western Civilization is weak, Christianity is weak, our Christian God is weak, and all democracy, civilization, human rights ect. only make us weaker by the second! Our fascist enemies are such enviable paragons of efficiency, strength, and effectiveness that only desperate measures will prevent their victory! And our culture is weak, we'll never be able to assimilate immigrants, survive negotiation with our enemies, or keep tourists from deserting and going native on a visit to Cuba.
The Moslems, communists, homos, Jews, etc. are insidious, fiendishly patient—waiting, waiting for us to falter so that they can take over and enslave us. Remember the gates of Vienna, what Lenin said about probing with a bayonet, the Protocols of the Elders of Zion.
Strange shapes twist in the fog. Spies are everywhere, traitors await their chance, dissent is not dissent but a prelude to treason!
But Americans are getting too soft to fight, with socialized healthcare and work safety standards and FEMA and entertaining entertainment. Kids are having oral sex when they should be polishing shoes in boot-camp! Democracy has made us decadent and weak!
We need to arm, arm, arm our nation or the brown people will overwhelm us! That means we need to grow our economy (which can become a war economy when necessary) at all costs. The Economy does not exist to serve people, people exist to serve the economy.
Our vile, omniprecent enemies want us to think of a towering redwood forest as a place of contemplation, of solemn ancient beauty and God’s handiwork..NO! IF we don't cut it down, we will never manage to keep our GDP from being overtaken by the ever-hostile, never-befriendable brown people with their unstoppable brown-people economies.
We can't ever negotiate with enemies, ever! In fact, I'd rather we not talk to Germany or Japan, they haven't been allied to us long enough. If we were to have a diplomat talk to an Iranian diplomat, they would hypnotize him with their rhetoric and we would surrender!
Just like in the Fox docu-drama 24, there are ticking timebombs everywhere and only torture is keeping them from exploding. We must avoid empathy at all costs! Empathy is one step away from pity, which is one step from hesitating when the enemy is in your gunsights! And all it takes is a second of hesitation and BAM! America is destroyed! That's how weak America is!
The traitors in the media are trying to sap the public’s will to fight! Like a ghetto tough-kid we have to always be eager for a fight, and make sure everybody knows it, we have to project an image that says "yeah, that's right, I've got a big shiny gold chain around my neck, and inviting you to try to grab it, because I'm so confident in my ability to clobber you, and I'll use any excuse to fight!" Any interuption of our macho facade will result in an immediate swarming attack from the enemies that are everywhere and among us!
Everywhere I go I have to loudly proclaim my masculinity, but it doesn't distract me from lengthening coma in my shrunken, limp, numb genetalia and every month my man-boobs are drooping further and pumping out more estrogen.
Brown people scare me. Teenagers scare me. My own weakness scares me. The weakness of America, the West, and the concept of civilization scares me. I haven't felt safe since I was a toddler, with big strong Daddy and soft, soft Mommy. That's why I'm so nostalgic, and why I'm so in love with eras I have no memory and little knowledge of, like the 1950's, or the Victorian era, or the reign of Moses.
I believe that every failure I experience is not a lesson to learn from, but proof that I am being sabotaged by THE ENEMY. A failure does not mean "change direction" a failure means "proceed with redoubled fury and tenacity!"
Worst of all, I am completely aware of these irrational beliefs and behaviors, yet I cling to them simply because I can't show my weakness, the slightest retreat will turn into the most chaotic rout, and I just plain don't want to let THEM win. I don't wanna. I'd rather die than let them win. I don't care if I lose as long as they lose too.
What is going on, and what can I do. The doctors say I have PSTD, but if I admit that there's a problem, then the PSTD-demons will see my weakness and turn me into a reefer-smoking burnout like the rest of my generation! Help me!
EDIT: UPDATE: The doctor says it's not PTSD. He says I'm "just a republican, and that's normal. For some reason."
In Iraq I personally witnessed [Lies deleted. He's so delirious he's confusing Al-Jezeria propaganda with his own memories - Jeb] in fact they even gave him a medal for it.
I have gained an overwelming view of life as conflict, struggle, and war. We must arm, arm, arm. We must fight in every spectrum: commerce also is a fight to the death in which we must prevail by any means. We must not become soft and weak, as only the strong and resolute will survive in this dog-eat-dog world; we have to let our citizens starve if they can’t keep up. Further, we must breed, breed, breed, - that's what I mean when I say "pro-Family" for else the Chinese, Moslems, Africans, etc will overwhelm us.
America is weak! Western Civilization is weak, Christianity is weak, our Christian God is weak, and all democracy, civilization, human rights ect. only make us weaker by the second! Our fascist enemies are such enviable paragons of efficiency, strength, and effectiveness that only desperate measures will prevent their victory! And our culture is weak, we'll never be able to assimilate immigrants, survive negotiation with our enemies, or keep tourists from deserting and going native on a visit to Cuba.
The Moslems, communists, homos, Jews, etc. are insidious, fiendishly patient—waiting, waiting for us to falter so that they can take over and enslave us. Remember the gates of Vienna, what Lenin said about probing with a bayonet, the Protocols of the Elders of Zion.
Strange shapes twist in the fog. Spies are everywhere, traitors await their chance, dissent is not dissent but a prelude to treason!
But Americans are getting too soft to fight, with socialized healthcare and work safety standards and FEMA and entertaining entertainment. Kids are having oral sex when they should be polishing shoes in boot-camp! Democracy has made us decadent and weak!
We need to arm, arm, arm our nation or the brown people will overwhelm us! That means we need to grow our economy (which can become a war economy when necessary) at all costs. The Economy does not exist to serve people, people exist to serve the economy.
Our vile, omniprecent enemies want us to think of a towering redwood forest as a place of contemplation, of solemn ancient beauty and God’s handiwork..NO! IF we don't cut it down, we will never manage to keep our GDP from being overtaken by the ever-hostile, never-befriendable brown people with their unstoppable brown-people economies.
We can't ever negotiate with enemies, ever! In fact, I'd rather we not talk to Germany or Japan, they haven't been allied to us long enough. If we were to have a diplomat talk to an Iranian diplomat, they would hypnotize him with their rhetoric and we would surrender!
Just like in the Fox docu-drama 24, there are ticking timebombs everywhere and only torture is keeping them from exploding. We must avoid empathy at all costs! Empathy is one step away from pity, which is one step from hesitating when the enemy is in your gunsights! And all it takes is a second of hesitation and BAM! America is destroyed! That's how weak America is!
The traitors in the media are trying to sap the public’s will to fight! Like a ghetto tough-kid we have to always be eager for a fight, and make sure everybody knows it, we have to project an image that says "yeah, that's right, I've got a big shiny gold chain around my neck, and inviting you to try to grab it, because I'm so confident in my ability to clobber you, and I'll use any excuse to fight!" Any interuption of our macho facade will result in an immediate swarming attack from the enemies that are everywhere and among us!
Everywhere I go I have to loudly proclaim my masculinity, but it doesn't distract me from lengthening coma in my shrunken, limp, numb genetalia and every month my man-boobs are drooping further and pumping out more estrogen.
Brown people scare me. Teenagers scare me. My own weakness scares me. The weakness of America, the West, and the concept of civilization scares me. I haven't felt safe since I was a toddler, with big strong Daddy and soft, soft Mommy. That's why I'm so nostalgic, and why I'm so in love with eras I have no memory and little knowledge of, like the 1950's, or the Victorian era, or the reign of Moses.
I believe that every failure I experience is not a lesson to learn from, but proof that I am being sabotaged by THE ENEMY. A failure does not mean "change direction" a failure means "proceed with redoubled fury and tenacity!"
Worst of all, I am completely aware of these irrational beliefs and behaviors, yet I cling to them simply because I can't show my weakness, the slightest retreat will turn into the most chaotic rout, and I just plain don't want to let THEM win. I don't wanna. I'd rather die than let them win. I don't care if I lose as long as they lose too.
What is going on, and what can I do. The doctors say I have PSTD, but if I admit that there's a problem, then the PSTD-demons will see my weakness and turn me into a reefer-smoking burnout like the rest of my generation! Help me!
EDIT: UPDATE: The doctor says it's not PTSD. He says I'm "just a republican, and that's normal. For some reason."
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