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*looks at the forum with his back to the camera with the wind blowing through his hair.*
Okay, relax, I'm not trolling here, so, please, don't edit this because I really just want to tell my story on here and have a chance of making amends for my actions...
So, who here remembers me? Incase you don't, allow me to refresh your memory... I came here about 4 or so years ago to troll. I was, at the time, a Christian. I basically had this idea that I could "Take landover baptist down" because I saw it as "blasphemy". I made that stupid petition, naively thinking that it would actually be effective. Instead, to my disappointment and utter disgust, it was spammed unmercifully by trolls from i-mockery and something awful.
So, I guess I should explain why I did it... Looking back on it now, I`m not entirely sure, but I think there were several reasons. For one, I hated the ridiculous views, racism, and sexism. I was well aware that it wasn't real, but for some reason, I had this irrational fear in the back of my mind that it was... Obviously, I saw the site at blasphemy and insulting to God... I think I also kind of wanted to be the "good guy" in my own head... And also... I think it was because I was scared that this is what christianity actually taught... And looking at it now, it pretty much IS what christianity teaches. At least, TRUE christianity. And I think the whole time, I knew this deep down... But I didn't want to admit it...
So, what's up with me now? Well, first, I should probably go into a bit more detail of the circumstances that surrounded the incidents on the forum here. First, I was a guy who hated abortion and same sex marriage with a passion. It would make me angry as all hell. And I had this idea drilled into my head known as "family values". I hated those things because I felt that they contradicted what I held to be extremely sacred. There was no reasoning with me. It was firmly planted in place. Then came this fateful day where I asked a question that slowly lead to the destruction of my faith. Heaven came into question... Could you have a family in heaven? Is there sex there? Could you have a child there? Were there even hugs or kisses? It was cause Archie mentioned this on all in the family. Obviously, this prompted me to ask. I asked on a forum, and, I have to say, the responses were certainly not pleasant. I was terrified. Shocked. Appalled. Incredibly anguished. And so it remained for 3 years. For a while, I had tried the mormons who believed in eternal marriage and "celestial sex". I didn't quite understand what was meant by "spiritual children", but I thought it was better than never having offspring at all. However, I found out that you have to actually get married on earth and if you die before then, you're @#$% out of luck. I also realized how stupid the whole story was. I mean, golden plates? Come on... It was obvious that he made it up... I had a lot of great memories, though, and during that time, met this awesome girl on the internet who disappeared who I still miss very much. So, after that, I pressed on. I STILL held family values closely, but it was an issue that was extremely severe. Of course, the article on this website, "Will I see my grandpa naked after the rapture?" didn't help matters. Infact, it made me consider killing a certain website creator who shall remain nameless. Of course, I was never serious about it, because what kind of a girl would want a guy who did something like that? Eventually, it led me to ask more and more questions... Every question I asked, another grew in it's place. Little did I know at the time, it was bringing God's wisdom and omnipotence into question. As I read a few anime fanfics, particularly this one called "New Ranma", I started seeing things from the perspective of homosexuals and slowly unhardened my heart towards them. I still had issues with them, but I was slowly beginning to realize that I had been lied to. Especially with all this B.S. about "family values". They NEVER cared about family values! It was all a lie in order to manipulate voters as well as to cover up their own sexual insecurities. One day, I just said "Okay, you know what? I'm not going to hate homosexuals anymore. From now on, it's between them and God. Then, I very briefly looked at the Jehovah's Witness's. They too seemed to believe that you could have a family and offspring forever. But they also had some terrible flaws. But so did the mormons, and, quite frankly, I was willing to put up with ANYTHING if it meant having a family for eternity. However, the notion of this whole "no sex in heaven" issue was rapidly chipping away at my sanity. A little bit before the end, I was getting so upset over it, I actually started to curse and hit stuff and be violent, which was really scaring me. Then, I decided that I had to pray. It seemed to help, and I vowed that from then on, every time I started to worry about it, I would pray to God. But this time, instead of doing the usual ritual of holding my hands together, I would just talk to God as if he was in the room. . It seemed effective at first, but every time I prayed, it seemed less effective than the last. Eventually, it God to the point where it barely worked at all, and I was worried and depressed about it and talking to this one atheist... And so, it happened... He pointed out a verse in the bible where Moses orders his men to kill all the men, women, and little boys, but keep the little virgin girls alive for themselves. My reverence for women got the better of me... And I finally realized what was going on... I saw it as clear as a bell... Yahweh... was just a cruel, mean, evil, insane, megalomaniacal, oppressive dictator. Everything made sense...
So, I broke free from the chains of religion... I was finally able to do what I wanted without the fear of hell looming over my head. I could now look at OTHER religions. It was the first time in a long time that I felt at peace... And I also could even use magic if I wanted! Sadly, after looking critically at things, I found there was no such thing as magic, which was incredibly disappointing. So, now, I understand the whole point of this website and why the people on here say what they say and come from where they come from. People who get offended by this website are missing the point entirely...
So, if it's okay with you, I'd actually like to talk to you all seriously... Even in PM's...
Also, please, ask me questions. I LOVE answering questions about me.
Okay, relax, I'm not trolling here, so, please, don't edit this because I really just want to tell my story on here and have a chance of making amends for my actions...
So, who here remembers me? Incase you don't, allow me to refresh your memory... I came here about 4 or so years ago to troll. I was, at the time, a Christian. I basically had this idea that I could "Take landover baptist down" because I saw it as "blasphemy". I made that stupid petition, naively thinking that it would actually be effective. Instead, to my disappointment and utter disgust, it was spammed unmercifully by trolls from i-mockery and something awful.
So, I guess I should explain why I did it... Looking back on it now, I`m not entirely sure, but I think there were several reasons. For one, I hated the ridiculous views, racism, and sexism. I was well aware that it wasn't real, but for some reason, I had this irrational fear in the back of my mind that it was... Obviously, I saw the site at blasphemy and insulting to God... I think I also kind of wanted to be the "good guy" in my own head... And also... I think it was because I was scared that this is what christianity actually taught... And looking at it now, it pretty much IS what christianity teaches. At least, TRUE christianity. And I think the whole time, I knew this deep down... But I didn't want to admit it...
So, what's up with me now? Well, first, I should probably go into a bit more detail of the circumstances that surrounded the incidents on the forum here. First, I was a guy who hated abortion and same sex marriage with a passion. It would make me angry as all hell. And I had this idea drilled into my head known as "family values". I hated those things because I felt that they contradicted what I held to be extremely sacred. There was no reasoning with me. It was firmly planted in place. Then came this fateful day where I asked a question that slowly lead to the destruction of my faith. Heaven came into question... Could you have a family in heaven? Is there sex there? Could you have a child there? Were there even hugs or kisses? It was cause Archie mentioned this on all in the family. Obviously, this prompted me to ask. I asked on a forum, and, I have to say, the responses were certainly not pleasant. I was terrified. Shocked. Appalled. Incredibly anguished. And so it remained for 3 years. For a while, I had tried the mormons who believed in eternal marriage and "celestial sex". I didn't quite understand what was meant by "spiritual children", but I thought it was better than never having offspring at all. However, I found out that you have to actually get married on earth and if you die before then, you're @#$% out of luck. I also realized how stupid the whole story was. I mean, golden plates? Come on... It was obvious that he made it up... I had a lot of great memories, though, and during that time, met this awesome girl on the internet who disappeared who I still miss very much. So, after that, I pressed on. I STILL held family values closely, but it was an issue that was extremely severe. Of course, the article on this website, "Will I see my grandpa naked after the rapture?" didn't help matters. Infact, it made me consider killing a certain website creator who shall remain nameless. Of course, I was never serious about it, because what kind of a girl would want a guy who did something like that? Eventually, it led me to ask more and more questions... Every question I asked, another grew in it's place. Little did I know at the time, it was bringing God's wisdom and omnipotence into question. As I read a few anime fanfics, particularly this one called "New Ranma", I started seeing things from the perspective of homosexuals and slowly unhardened my heart towards them. I still had issues with them, but I was slowly beginning to realize that I had been lied to. Especially with all this B.S. about "family values". They NEVER cared about family values! It was all a lie in order to manipulate voters as well as to cover up their own sexual insecurities. One day, I just said "Okay, you know what? I'm not going to hate homosexuals anymore. From now on, it's between them and God. Then, I very briefly looked at the Jehovah's Witness's. They too seemed to believe that you could have a family and offspring forever. But they also had some terrible flaws. But so did the mormons, and, quite frankly, I was willing to put up with ANYTHING if it meant having a family for eternity. However, the notion of this whole "no sex in heaven" issue was rapidly chipping away at my sanity. A little bit before the end, I was getting so upset over it, I actually started to curse and hit stuff and be violent, which was really scaring me. Then, I decided that I had to pray. It seemed to help, and I vowed that from then on, every time I started to worry about it, I would pray to God. But this time, instead of doing the usual ritual of holding my hands together, I would just talk to God as if he was in the room. . It seemed effective at first, but every time I prayed, it seemed less effective than the last. Eventually, it God to the point where it barely worked at all, and I was worried and depressed about it and talking to this one atheist... And so, it happened... He pointed out a verse in the bible where Moses orders his men to kill all the men, women, and little boys, but keep the little virgin girls alive for themselves. My reverence for women got the better of me... And I finally realized what was going on... I saw it as clear as a bell... Yahweh... was just a cruel, mean, evil, insane, megalomaniacal, oppressive dictator. Everything made sense...
So, I broke free from the chains of religion... I was finally able to do what I wanted without the fear of hell looming over my head. I could now look at OTHER religions. It was the first time in a long time that I felt at peace... And I also could even use magic if I wanted! Sadly, after looking critically at things, I found there was no such thing as magic, which was incredibly disappointing. So, now, I understand the whole point of this website and why the people on here say what they say and come from where they come from. People who get offended by this website are missing the point entirely...
So, if it's okay with you, I'd actually like to talk to you all seriously... Even in PM's...
Also, please, ask me questions. I LOVE answering questions about me.
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